The Battle Continues

I was on a date with a girl about six months ago.
We liked different music but she introduced me to songs I love now.

I was on a date with a girl about six months ago.
We had very different styles and ideas about life.

I was on a date with a girl about six months ago.
We never became "a real thing" but I was comfortable without progressing.

I was on a date with a girl about six months ago.
She kissed me on the cheek because I always did it to her, even though she didn't like it.

I was on a date with a girl about six months ago.
It was only a kiss on the cheek, and I had been trying to impress her.

I burst into tears.

Something incredibly overwhelming came over me; this intense loneliness.

I cried for a while, right in front of her.

"So that's what that feels like" I thought.

I wrapped my jacket around my legs, it was cold and about 4am.

"That's what it feels like to get kissed on the cheek"

Realizing that at 21 years old.. I couldn't remember another time I got kissed on the cheek.

Realizing how long it had been since I was even kissed at all.

She spent the night and I had work in the morning and if I recall it was a decent day.

Decent being a large step up from terrible.

My thoughts slowed to speaking pace.

I didn't feel less alone, but I didn't feel more.

It gave me a goal.

I'm over-affectionate because I never receive affection.

I want to find someone who will go out of their way to show it, because I do.

This loneliness has to stop.

I was on a date with a girl about six months ago.
I was in the most pain I could feel at once.

I was on a date with a girl about six months ago.
And for a moment.. Life sucked a little bit less...